Love is composed of two INDIVIDUALS and if the individuals are right for each other distance only assures you that you can survive being apart. It’s rediscovering yourself and being independent, just to spark up an even healthier relationship. It’s accepting the flaws of the other, understanding a situation and most importantly knowing whats best for YOU. Only an individual can set aside the things he/she needs and wants with the things they have and get, and if the things he/she needs and want are equivalent to the things they have and get then the search for love is no longer in progress. Being compatible with someone your totally opposite with is a wonderful thing. Forgiving isn’t for the weak, its for the believers of love and a true sincere apology.
Beware of the person you have molded me into. Expect me to ask for the impossible its your fault, better be finding ways to make it rain. Literally.
since i’ve been on here. idk why.. anywho i was bored so here ya go!
10 days and the year will be over,
How the time flew by, it has been an emotional ride for me since the start here are a few main events/times that hit me real hard…
January- My boyfriend who had been in bootcamp for 3 months was coming home, three months of no communication other than letters. I flew myself to San Diego without consulting my father, my mother knew and she supported me all the way. It was a new experience for it was my first time on a plane and first time in another city without my parents or anyone else, and plus I was about to reunite with my lover.
February- March/ some of April- My boyfriend broke my heart into pieces.. I was a walking wreck. We were no longer dating he was stationed in California completing his SOI we would communicate regularly and there was never a real closure. I couldn’t accept the fact that we were not together.
April- Spring semester in school was a breeze, I started working at the HEB here in Huntsville and my time was focused on school and work, with weekends talking to my ex boyfriend for he could only use his phone during the weekends.
April 15-18 2011- there I go again, flew myself to San Diego to go see my ex and spent the weekend with him. I was so confused, until this day I ask myself why? Why couldn’t I let it go? Why did I put so much effort to it? The weekend was amazing. The fire was rekindled and the emotions never went away. The only thing I knew then was that this boy made me the happiest without even trying he made me vulnerable and weak with a simple touch. That Sunday when I was at the airport, he asked me to be his girlfriend again. I thank God for this trip, it made him and I realize how crazy we were for eachother.
May, June, July- I finished school in may and went home for the summer; I worked down there and kept myself busy. Emilio came down a couple of times, if not three it was two, not too sure how many times he did so.
August- School was about to start around the 20ths… The 26th of this month………. Emilio and I tied the knot. It was crazy, it is still crazy. But from that day on I have been the happiest. Still hard to believe.
September- Birthday month 20 years old.
November- My now husband has orders for deployment and came home for 2 weeks for pre-deployment leave. I talked with my professors and with my manager from work; I also go to San Antonio for 2 weeks. On November 14, 2011 my husband’s ship takes off on a mule with Hawaii as its first stop. I have only talked to him twice since then.
December- I anxiously wait for my phone to ring, fall semester is over but I must stay in Huntsville to work over the break. The pangs of loneliness assault me each night, and the memories are bitter sweet. I pray for my husband’s safety and I pray for guidance and patience for myself. I have hope for 2012.
Well i had no clue the year would end like this, 11 months ago I was experiencing new things, developing new emotions, and now here I’am at the edge of my slightly uncomfortable bed, married to the man of my dreams, getting good grades in school, challenging myself with a job….. annnnddddd still keeping it together. I’m very thankful for the strength the Lord has gave me. I had a blessed year and 2012 can’t come any sooner. OH crap, its 2 am gotta be up for work in a few. peace fuckers :)
you just dont understand me, how stupid of me to think you ever did.
He’s not the type to smile, but im the type to force him to smile.
He’s the type to run and exercise, shit give me candy and fast food.
He has few words, I’m never short on words.
He wears combat boots, give me some flats please.
He’ll eat anything that can be eaten, oh yes I’m VERY picky.
He loves dogs, i swear i have Cynophobia.
He lives in California, i stay in Texas.
He loves me and I love him. There’s no difference there.
tonight before i went to work we skyped and i did not only hear his happiness but clearly saw it too. He said “Baby you made my day, your the cutest girl ever:)” little does he know that a major portion of my happiness and the glow in my eyes is all because of him. Time does change things for the worse or for the better it all has its purpose and reason. Something we need to learn to appreciate.
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